Wednesday, March 26, 2008

It was better in the morning - doing better with Amtrak schedules though today also felt long and stressful. I'm so frustrated that Ruth and Chris didn't get tender, supportive, compassionate care at their followup appointment with the obstetrician - frustrated that Bob's class is mostly not behaving well and that teaching feels more like discipline and trying to manage than an exciting soul changing mind opening mission. I want everything to be good for everyone I love, and it just isn't. Zachary's stitches do look good though - his little head healing. Even there I'm distressed. Joanna reported that he wasn't able to answer questions like "What is your last name?" at the hospital because of the concussion. Its freaky that we are so vulnerable, our brains so vulnerable. He does seem completely himself now and is even doing an unusually good job of remembering not to run and jump with the stitches in.

2 comments:

Ruth said...

I'm glad Zachy is doing well. Concussions ARE really scary (especially on someone tiny we love!). I'm sorry for Bob's frustrations and the problems with Amtrak (is it all fixed or can we help?) I've decided we all deserve an unusually good next year!

Dixi said...

What resonates with me in this post is the 'I want everything to be good for everyone I love....'

Oh if only there were such a thing as a magic wand.....

One good thing about teaching, we all used to remind ourselves of in the difficult years, is the year will come to an end. Some years that HAD to be enough.