I am noticing things about myself tonight.
I was utterly thrilled with the news that Ruth and Chris are going to have a baby, and deeply honored to be the first family member told - and yet I realis from reading Ruth's blog that my immediate response was subdued compare to others. No tears, no happy dances at the table, just deep quiet pleasure for them. I don't think I feel less. I am very willing to commit eotionally to this pregnancy. I'm not a WASP, and don't think of myself as being especially restrained emotionally - but - I don't know. I am excited and delighted about this pregnancy and will look more at my style of reacting to good news. People need to be able to tell one is excited and delighted - right?
Also, I seem to be having trouble thinking of things to write about that aren't related to other people - to my roles in support of and realtion to other people. I don' t think htat's always true, but it is right now.
I also seem to be procrastinating scrapbooking - which I think I really want to do and believe is important. I don't want family stories lost - so off computer - to scrapbooking room.